Hmmm... I'm not so sure if it's even called paranoia, but I'm sure it's some kind of disorder.

Recently, I come to terms of finally telling someone about the panic attacks I've been having recently and even way way way before. These panic attacks don't happen for no reason, there's always a basis why it suddenly hit me. For instance would be the fact that whenever I'm in a car and the windshield wiper starts moving. I don't know why, but I seriously get annoyed when the windshield wiper moves, to the point that even if it's raining I would want the driver to stop the windshield wiper from moving. But of course, I never asked the driver to do that, instead I closed my eyes and started counting imaginary sheep.

Another would be my certain fright with speed. It worsen when we had our manaoag trip last Feb. Five minutes after the bus started moving, I suddenly feel phobic of speed, or in tagalog "Nalula ako sa bus", where I had this nagging feeling that I must make the bus stop, or else I'll totally have panic attacks. Well, I didn't make the bus stop, instead I plugged in my headphones and decided to sleep all throughout the trip.

I don't know what this is called. I don't think it's even phobia, and it just worries me.

I think I developed some kind of Photo Manip sickness :)) I suddenly love manipulating sheesh here and there :)) Anyway, sorry for suddenly being bipolar :| :)) Things are just so rough, I'm not sure what to do right now :(

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! I got so hooked with these Photo editing apps in Google chrome, that I seemed to have added some 'touche' to my photos :) Pixlr-o-matic is sooooo easy to use! It's like instagram, only it's not as mainstream as instagram (WAHAHA! Hipster pala eh noh). Another is Picnik, which is easy to use as well :) I'm in love with these apps ♥♥♥

I admit I'm a loser when it comes to Adobe Photoshop and other editing software, so these apps really are my saving grace when it comes to adding shizz to my pics :) anyway, here are my new creations :))) : 

I got so hooked with the song Somebody I used to know by Gotye, and got reminded of the past and sheesh. I'm not bitter anymore about whatever happened before (PEKSMAN). It's just that listening to these kinds of songs that makes you encourage to acknowledge the pain you had before (GUMAGANUN),therefore now that you have gotten over it you realize how strong you have been thanks to that painful memory.

It's painful to be suddenly cut off from somebody's life... but then again, sometimes it's all for the better :')